Back In Black

After five weeks of forced exile, I have formed compromise with my opposition to continue my education through my most minimal and acceptable level. I feel embarassed and even raped because of this grand farce that has been played on me. Through ignorance, they have taken almost everything meaningful to me at this time away; through arrogance, they tease and tempt me with the fantasy of regaining what is rightfully mine with pathetic intentions.

Five weeks I had spent, attempting to pull my life together from this unfair nightmare. Even after the truth and corresponding facts have presented themselves, they refuse to accept the great error that they've created. Instead, they have taken the opportunity to jump around their own "agreements" and "compromises" to simply override and ignore the evidence that rendered their previous arguments obselete. Without accepting responsibility, they drop all responsibility on me and since they control the strings, who is there to know the difference but I?

This entire mess has been created out of the irrational and unsubstantiated fear that they've created in my image. Facts have been twisted, fabricated or even made so vague to support their arguments without any of my consent and sometimes even knowledge. They've taken me away from my structure, my goals, and my friends simply because I do not follow after their conformist, government-loving modeling. In this democracy, the only logic is the logic chosen by the majority in a group; so far I am the only one who fully understands and supports my side, while the others continuously deteriorate my own freedoms for their own "comfort levels" while under the delusion that I accept what they are doing.

I will continue to fight this rail-roading manuever by those who have now become my only personal enemies. But at what levels would I even be heard without bias? At this level, would they even care about one students education? In the past, I made the choice to further trust the system, in hopes that it would not make another judgemental mistake based on bias and fabricated information. I have spent the last five weeks regretting that very decision, for the system has failed me a second time.